Goodbye friend
Marrow bones nothing left
For a bird holy smokes
I am so
Empty.
You are home sleeping
Your baby fleas creeping.
Bathroom leaks seeping.
I lock my room.
i think of
Leaving.
Kid me would go hunting
For big slugs trust me
this is so loving
I'm showing you my thing.
We are both Texas grown
chiggers climb Bruised shinbones
Lizards bake On dry limestone.
You grew up poor,
I grew up hungry.
It was so loving
Sharing our sunscreen
Trading our small dreams
Revealing I’m a weak thing.
You feed me cream cheese.
We become queer family.
You teach me,
I can love with BPD.
But we’re smoking too much weed
I ignore bedbugs in your sheets
Hating enemies you seem to keep
Trusting they're somehow bad for me?
Your boyfriend explains to me
Sex work and its apparent conspiracy.
He thinks OJ Simpson should be free.
He asks me to explain
To him
Why you scare me.
Bleached are teeth Dropped in holes.
Nothing left for angry worms
Meters deep digging through
Cold dark earth,
empty.
For a bird holy smokes
I am so
Empty.
You are home sleeping
Your baby fleas creeping.
Bathroom leaks seeping.
I lock my room.
i think of
Leaving.
Kid me would go hunting
For big slugs trust me
this is so loving
I'm showing you my thing.
We are both Texas grown
chiggers climb Bruised shinbones
Lizards bake On dry limestone.
You grew up poor,
I grew up hungry.
It was so loving
Sharing our sunscreen
Trading our small dreams
Revealing I’m a weak thing.
You feed me cream cheese.
We become queer family.
You teach me,
I can love with BPD.
But we’re smoking too much weed
I ignore bedbugs in your sheets
Hating enemies you seem to keep
Trusting they're somehow bad for me?
Your boyfriend explains to me
Sex work and its apparent conspiracy.
He thinks OJ Simpson should be free.
He asks me to explain
To him
Why you scare me.
Bleached are teeth Dropped in holes.
Nothing left for angry worms
Meters deep digging through
Cold dark earth,
empty.
Cris Iacoponi is a Philadelphia-based poet. She writes on Surviving with a capital S: past and present, trauma and mental illness. She is the co facilitator of the Philly Poetry Workshop out of A-Space community center, and likes pigs.